going to a university will show me other people? done with community fucking college! 

I can’t stop thinking about her.
I can’t stop thinking about how lucky HE is.
I can’t stop thinking…
Tonight I’m falling apart. I just have to deal with it.
Maybe I need to stop. Stop the news feed.
I need to find someone new to distract me.
I want her so bad…but she could care less about me.
She has her ex. A guy that she has so much history with.
I guess I fucked up a lot of things. Oh well. 

if i should talk to her more or just wait till i can see her during the summer. After all the summer is where it all started…but I don’t want to lose her and I don’t want to want to want her (sorry) haha. but seriously, I’ve never felt the way I do about her and she’s absolutely hard to get over. It took me a few months the first time I “got over” her. Then out of nowhere she called me, and then she messaged me not too long after that. I’m so confused.